Emotions

I am feeling very alone right now. I am struggling mentally. I feel like I am either really irriated all the time or I am crying. Not much in between. I have started going to Al-Anon again in addition to my psych appts and therapy appts. The meds still aren't working. I've been on several different things now and I am now trying Tegratol and Abilify. Not working so far.

The other problem is work is still so stressful. I never know if we will actually make payroll by some act of God each time. It's very scary. I think that is really not helping the situation. I have resume's out there and one for a job that my neighbor works for that I really want. It would be less pay and less responsibility but would give me the chance to get into a company that is well established and doesn't have the threat of folding. The kind of job security may mend me completely! ha ha.

Anyway, if anyone actually reads this, have a great weekend.

Puppies

Lucky

I'm still here

I know that no one really reads this so it doesn't matter if I don't write for a while... But I'm back.

I obviously had a really hard time with Lucky passing away. There have also been struggles with my husbands alcoholism going on so life has just been too stressful to write about. Things I think are on the up and up though. I am going to Al-anon once a week and will actually be going twice this week and Bob has been going to AA twice a week. So as long as we are concentrating on taking care of ourselves, hopefully things will get easier at home.

We are also going to be bringing home a puppy at the end of August. I need a dog in the house. I need that distraction to love something else instead of just missing Lucky. I will put up some more pictures of Lucky and some of the puppies we will be choosing from.