I guess the OCD is over with for now

Ok so I haven't written in a while.

I have had a couple of good days and a few bad days lately. Nothing out of the ordinary except the good days which I will take as many of those as possible.

Today I found out that we aren't going to meet payroll at work. I'm the office manager and basically do whatever the owner needs me to do. Payroll, accounts payable, receivables, ordering, customer service, you name it. So I told him last week that receivables wasn't looking good for payroll the next week. We basically have tons of bills and no work which means no receivables. So he told a bunch of people they need to go to straight commission work for sales or leave. They haven't been selling and have been just collecting a paycheck for a year and a half. This should have happened a long time ago. There are a few people that should be here still though and even though they aren't producing as fast as we would like, they are making good strong contacts and want the company to succeed.

I have been at work crying most of the time. Trying to hide it from my boss. He says this is just a speed bump and I said, well, I usually trip and break my face on those, and he said he won't let me. I don't know how he remains so positive and I feel bad for putting any stress on him by talking about how all of this is bothering me.

Ok I have exceeded my energy level for typing... good thing I have my psych appt tomorrow.

Kate