Motivation- What's that?

I know no one is reading this yet so I don't know why I keep trying to "write to my audience", ha ha. I fret over what to say, how to say it. I guess that is just the perfectionist in me.

Anyway, so yesterday went ok for day 1 on the new meds. Last night I slept really good again except I woke up this morning really groggy and I think I am going to take 50 mg of the Seroquel tonight and see how that goes.

Today I just really feel kind of spacey. My brain isn't able to concentrate on anything and people talk to me and I don't feel like I'm actually listening. Lack of concentration is a big symptom of depression and I have struggled with that prior to the new drugs so I don't think that has anything to do with the meds. The spacey thing might though.

My biggest concern right now is work. I get nothing done and can't seem to get motivated to accomplish much if anything throughout the day. I have no energy and frankly it stresses me out to see the piles on my desk. I am going to try to take a small pile and do one thing at a time today and hope I can make some headway. I hate feeling like a failure at work and home.

Luckily home life is going fairly well. My husband has been really great with helping me in regards to my diagnosis and symptoms. This hasn't always been the case. He is a recovering alcoholic and if any of you know an alcoholic you know that they can be pretty selfish. So it means even more to me that he has been so great through all of this. The one problem I have is that the house is constantly a mess. B doesn't do much housework if any. I have accepted the fact long ago but when I feel like this and don't have the energy to clean, the house just ends up being a complete disaster.

My step-daughter moved in with us about a month ago and we have been struggling a little bit to figure out how to all live together. :) She is 18 now and does not have a job yet. B put his foot down on Sunday and told her she needs to really work hard at finding a job and doing her share around the house because we are paying for her cell phone and car insurance and pretty much all of her expenses right now. If she doesn't get her act together, he told her that would all go away. I think that is fair. She has sluffed off for a month now and she needs to get a dose of reality. We are more than happy to help her out so she can get money saved for college in the fall but we will not just keep dishing out the money without her working and saving.

I guess that's about all I have for today.